everything you need
is already within you
listen to your heart
kimseyjune
create | devise | process | shape
Friday, November 2, 2012
Thursday, November 1, 2012
the way the forest shelters
the way the forest shelters
unintentionally, unconcerned
without thanks
shelters the animals
the moss
the manic monkeys
the forest is one
made of many
like a sea
of faces only seen
as a crowd blurring
smeared then erased
leaving only fine white
chalk-dust
behind
the way the forest shelters
i cannot shelter you
i am too invested—
curious too—
attached—
taking a lesson from the forest
i lean back
and fall knowing
earth will catch me—
absorb me without a thought
unintentionally, unconcerned
without thanks
shelters the animals
the moss
the manic monkeys
the forest is one
made of many
like a sea
of faces only seen
as a crowd blurring
smeared then erased
leaving only fine white
chalk-dust
behind
the way the forest shelters
i cannot shelter you
i am too invested—
curious too—
attached—
taking a lesson from the forest
i lean back
and fall knowing
earth will catch me—
absorb me without a thought
Thursday, October 25, 2012
2008
we liked to think we were adventurous
trail mix
an apple
crackers—
no flashlight or map
we drove out to the trail head
in your navy sedan
mid afternoon sun
coaxing sweat from pores
this desert is something isn't it?
a couple hours in we wonder
Isn't This Supposed To Be A Loop?
the frantic man
noosed walking stick in hand
refused us direction and kept on
mumbling something
about "losing the light"
that can't be good.
in retrospect
maybe we should have followed him—
instead we held tight
to this "loop idea"
as the sun
slowly shriveled
i told you to Run
Run after me—
and you did
until we no longer saw
anything
to run towards
collapsed in dirt
and fear speckled
with coarse grass
and looked up at the stars...
trail mix
an apple
crackers—
no flashlight or map
we drove out to the trail head
in your navy sedan
mid afternoon sun
coaxing sweat from pores
this desert is something isn't it?
a couple hours in we wonder
Isn't This Supposed To Be A Loop?
the frantic man
noosed walking stick in hand
refused us direction and kept on
mumbling something
about "losing the light"
that can't be good.
in retrospect
maybe we should have followed him—
instead we held tight
to this "loop idea"
as the sun
slowly shriveled
i told you to Run
Run after me—
and you did
until we no longer saw
anything
to run towards
collapsed in dirt
and fear speckled
with coarse grass
and looked up at the stars...
from Brooklyn
curled
ribbons of hair
defying orders
mocking you
all the way
from Brooklyn
to Portland, Oregon
there you worked in advertising
long days fueled
by coffee nights
by cocaine
just one screw
in a large timepiece
moving at jet speed
you only ate because it was easy
now the time
to cook makes your skin crawl
forgotten in this forest
anxiety a cheap date
cells reach out
shrivel and pop
like helium balloons
ribbons of hair
defying orders
mocking you
all the way
from Brooklyn
to Portland, Oregon
there you worked in advertising
long days fueled
by coffee nights
by cocaine
just one screw
in a large timepiece
moving at jet speed
you only ate because it was easy
now the time
to cook makes your skin crawl
forgotten in this forest
anxiety a cheap date
cells reach out
shrivel and pop
like helium balloons
Thursday, October 11, 2012
when I was a child
when I was a child
there was a car chase
not suspensefully detached
like in the movies
this was Shove It In Your Face
Press It Into Your Eyelids
real
followed
into the deserted parking lot
cacti stiff
catatonic stars
my father got out of the car—
approaching the one
containing my mother
containing her
like water not yet frozen
in an ice cube tray—
leaving me as witness
as the car
sped for him
his body splayed—
stretched—
anchored—presumed
roadkill
as the car birthed
wings
and fled
there was a car chase
not suspensefully detached
like in the movies
this was Shove It In Your Face
Press It Into Your Eyelids
real
followed
into the deserted parking lot
cacti stiff
catatonic stars
my father got out of the car—
approaching the one
containing my mother
containing her
like water not yet frozen
in an ice cube tray—
leaving me as witness
as the car
sped for him
his body splayed—
stretched—
anchored—presumed
roadkill
as the car birthed
wings
and fled
jazz
he can no longer play the guitar
fingers shredded
carelessly mended
tendons mummified
fibrotic artifacts
he brings his own music—
jazz
lies down on the table—
surrendering
cradling
the micro system
of his ear
intention
on the tip of each needle
I spin them in
heart
kidney liver
lung
I Felt That Shoot Down My Entire Body
his organs light up
like a child's keyboard
fingers shredded
carelessly mended
tendons mummified
fibrotic artifacts
he brings his own music—
jazz
lies down on the table—
surrendering
cradling
the micro system
of his ear
intention
on the tip of each needle
I spin them in
heart
kidney liver
lung
I Felt That Shoot Down My Entire Body
his organs light up
like a child's keyboard
be here now.
stenciled—spray painted
"be here now"
words confined on asphalt
pulling space and time like taffy
"be here now"
words confined on asphalt
pulling space and time like taffy
Thursday, October 4, 2012
I love art museums
the cold negative space
patient and yielding
paint and scrap
metal—fabric and—
charcoal lurch
from the drywall
my stomach flips
backward grabbing
at the base of my skull
grainy, sepia ink
the face of an old woman
scalloped flesh
pillows around hollow eyes
I lean into those eyes
collecting stories
clipped to strings
and in that moment
just before I am irretrievable
a hand expands
over the back of my shoulder
and guides me
on to the next room
patient and yielding
paint and scrap
metal—fabric and—
charcoal lurch
from the drywall
my stomach flips
backward grabbing
at the base of my skull
grainy, sepia ink
the face of an old woman
scalloped flesh
pillows around hollow eyes
I lean into those eyes
collecting stories
clipped to strings
and in that moment
just before I am irretrievable
a hand expands
over the back of my shoulder
and guides me
on to the next room
a crowd was watching
a crowd was watching
speckled infant bird
twitching in its final moments
stunned by Nature's
brutal honesty
speckled infant bird
twitching in its final moments
stunned by Nature's
brutal honesty
the small beauties of ordinary things
ripped seams
must be reunited
disheveled flailing threads
reach out for the others
something like that scene in Titanic
icy fingers—"Never Let Go"
only significantly less tragic
responding to their cries
I sprint over with needle
and thread frantically
weaving back
and forth
stabbing
calloused fingers
the tarnished needle
a reluctant hero
panting out of breath
must be reunited
disheveled flailing threads
reach out for the others
something like that scene in Titanic
icy fingers—"Never Let Go"
only significantly less tragic
responding to their cries
I sprint over with needle
and thread frantically
weaving back
and forth
stabbing
calloused fingers
the tarnished needle
a reluctant hero
panting out of breath
locked
like outlines
of hearts
not yet colored in
the frame exists
smooth—resilient
yet fragile
like a ribcage lacking
its viscera
bones locked awaiting
the day
its soft peach-fuzzed
feathered fowl
returns
perches
and gazes
from the inside out
of hearts
not yet colored in
the frame exists
smooth—resilient
yet fragile
like a ribcage lacking
its viscera
bones locked awaiting
the day
its soft peach-fuzzed
feathered fowl
returns
perches
and gazes
from the inside out
Thursday, September 27, 2012
busted yolks
busted yolks at the Hi Life—coffee black
yearning to eventually be friends
fingers numb—winds slice
unapologetically through to bone
five months later I walk your dog
it feels strange to be in your apartment
you still display that painting—
that one of the bicycle we made
on my birthday
but now it is accompanied by
a new painting—
something more abstract—messier
I did not stare at it long.
yearning to eventually be friends
fingers numb—winds slice
unapologetically through to bone
five months later I walk your dog
it feels strange to be in your apartment
you still display that painting—
that one of the bicycle we made
on my birthday
but now it is accompanied by
a new painting—
something more abstract—messier
I did not stare at it long.
Friday, September 21, 2012
one week ago
her eyes
were achingly transparent
sheer curtain of tears
vaguely
tried to conceal
simultaneous fear
of being destroyed
and her calculated
intent
to do so
were achingly transparent
sheer curtain of tears
vaguely
tried to conceal
simultaneous fear
of being destroyed
and her calculated
intent
to do so
Thursday, September 20, 2012
new old flame
the ones you're in
well they are big
burn the brightest
flare up
but extinguish quickly
fireflies
scorched moths
incinerated
my apartment
has a tiny hammer
at the end
of a chain
to break the glass
in these kinds
of emergencies
well they are big
burn the brightest
flare up
but extinguish quickly
fireflies
scorched moths
incinerated
my apartment
has a tiny hammer
at the end
of a chain
to break the glass
in these kinds
of emergencies
lucky
the toes of my shoes
are lucky
they are the first to graze
the fallen leaves
on my walk
to the record store
at first I am molasses
honey wax
savoring the cutting
crinkled air
swirling it against the inside
of my cheek
thoughts of summers
past holding the small of my back
eventually I reach
said record store
the owner strolls
out from the back
bits of pretzels hissing
through his teeth
are lucky
they are the first to graze
the fallen leaves
on my walk
to the record store
at first I am molasses
honey wax
savoring the cutting
crinkled air
swirling it against the inside
of my cheek
thoughts of summers
past holding the small of my back
eventually I reach
said record store
the owner strolls
out from the back
bits of pretzels hissing
through his teeth
july
skin merges
with the black trampoline
you look up
towards the stars
that stain the sky
you tell her just the threads
encouraging
artistic license—but
it doesn't really matter
she will weave
her own stories now
whispering them back
like a twisted game
of telephone
with the black trampoline
you look up
towards the stars
that stain the sky
you tell her just the threads
encouraging
artistic license—but
it doesn't really matter
she will weave
her own stories now
whispering them back
like a twisted game
of telephone
Thursday, September 13, 2012
dissolution
splintered clavicle
shards of bone
flaked off
like chipped porcelain
and strewn across
the ocean like ashes
dissolved
into denim saltwater
echoed by stars
shards of bone
flaked off
like chipped porcelain
and strewn across
the ocean like ashes
dissolved
into denim saltwater
echoed by stars
Wednesday, January 18, 2012
ponies
that was a commendable tantrum, Sir.
your terms were clearly stated.
The Pink Pony Please.
BUT I SAID PLEASE.
Pleaase. PLEAAASSEEE!
you turned tomato red.
fire-engine red.
rare. meat. red.
but ponies are for...girls?!
what on earth?!
i can get down with your cause, Champ.
keep that inflamed head high.
your terms were clearly stated.
The Pink Pony Please.
BUT I SAID PLEASE.
Pleaase. PLEAAASSEEE!
you turned tomato red.
fire-engine red.
rare. meat. red.
but ponies are for...girls?!
what on earth?!
i can get down with your cause, Champ.
keep that inflamed head high.
the bridge
men's feet striking
pavement in unison
understated night
sweeps stars
and city haze
across their eyes
breast pockets
carry scars of wounds past
they do not reach for them
their hands
delicate carafes
pour
into each other's
pavement in unison
understated night
sweeps stars
and city haze
across their eyes
breast pockets
carry scars of wounds past
they do not reach for them
their hands
delicate carafes
pour
into each other's
Tuesday, May 10, 2011
stuck
i am stuck
my mind is gum on my shoe
old gum
not that freshly chewed
supple cloud of spearmint
but that rigid
immobilized wad
of unimaginative big red
turned more pink
than red--
the red was so uninspired
it slowly slinked away
like your lover in the morning
inching closer and closer
to the edge of the bed
so they may roll off
nail the dismount
and score a perfect 10
my mind is gum on my shoe
old gum
not that freshly chewed
supple cloud of spearmint
but that rigid
immobilized wad
of unimaginative big red
turned more pink
than red--
the red was so uninspired
it slowly slinked away
like your lover in the morning
inching closer and closer
to the edge of the bed
so they may roll off
nail the dismount
and score a perfect 10
dark willows
widowed by men, i married dark willows
climbing up their flaking bark
we promised to be together
until death
until flood
until disease and quaked earth
their leaves stroked my wispy hair
and my dry, mud-caked skin
i told them most of my secrets
the nuts, bolts, inner workings
and serrated wheels of my mind
they built for me
the most sought after canopy bed
sturdy, yet expansive and free
together we lay under it
sharing the sunlit sheets
slowly drifting
into dreams
climbing up their flaking bark
we promised to be together
until death
until flood
until disease and quaked earth
their leaves stroked my wispy hair
and my dry, mud-caked skin
i told them most of my secrets
the nuts, bolts, inner workings
and serrated wheels of my mind
they built for me
the most sought after canopy bed
sturdy, yet expansive and free
together we lay under it
sharing the sunlit sheets
slowly drifting
into dreams
doctor
you say there are no haloes
but i see them clear and bright
you say there is no hope for her
but you have never
seen her fight
trails of red
across black night
branches reach out to aid her
leaves gently plaster
up her wounds
for her journey somewhere greater
but i see them clear and bright
you say there is no hope for her
but you have never
seen her fight
trails of red
across black night
branches reach out to aid her
leaves gently plaster
up her wounds
for her journey somewhere greater
Tuesday, April 26, 2011
i write this poem out of
i write this poem
out of clay
crushing
the bars together
soft and sticky
rolling
madness into form
somersaults
in my palms
splat!
i smash the sphere
and start again
not ever wanting
to finish this piece
for when it's done
it is frozen
paralyzed stiff
never to sprout
wings
again
out of clay
crushing
the bars together
soft and sticky
rolling
madness into form
somersaults
in my palms
splat!
i smash the sphere
and start again
not ever wanting
to finish this piece
for when it's done
it is frozen
paralyzed stiff
never to sprout
wings
again
overheard
nestled in the knowing
lonely for life
i let the soft music play
as my daffodil hands
sew a pocket in your heart
lonely for life
i let the soft music play
as my daffodil hands
sew a pocket in your heart
i know i have been happiest...
spine pressed
into warm grass
gaze up
at the sapphire sky
"look for the truth
in the clouds"
you said
lights flashing
figures
dancing ecstatically
sweat enticing
strands
to curl
sailing
on the deck
violent breeze
whipping
hair like a swarm
of bees
into warm grass
gaze up
at the sapphire sky
"look for the truth
in the clouds"
you said
lights flashing
figures
dancing ecstatically
sweat enticing
strands
to curl
sailing
on the deck
violent breeze
whipping
hair like a swarm
of bees
Tuesday, April 19, 2011
awaiting the ruling
"accusing me of my life"*
thoughts stand trial
shoulds curl their fingers
around my throat
jagged nails
tearing thin skin
cells hyperventilating
the jury faces away
long dark hair tumbling in waves
palpable tension—
i slide my fingers over it
pressing into the pads
allowing it to penetrate my heart
viscous burgundy melting
down the sides of vessels
like ice cream on 100° asphalt
* quote from lucille clifton's "it was a dream"
thoughts stand trial
shoulds curl their fingers
around my throat
jagged nails
tearing thin skin
cells hyperventilating
the jury faces away
long dark hair tumbling in waves
palpable tension—
i slide my fingers over it
pressing into the pads
allowing it to penetrate my heart
viscous burgundy melting
down the sides of vessels
like ice cream on 100° asphalt
* quote from lucille clifton's "it was a dream"
Tuesday, April 12, 2011
"like tranquil fish glinting underwater"*
there is beauty there
to be found
nudging dirt
and fallen leaves aside
beneath the lethargy
the gloomy skies
those hazy eyes
there is anticipation stirring
impetus and children yelling
the sweet taste
of strawberries
bicyclists pink flushed cheeks
and pant legs rolled
picnics
and courage
remembrance
yes, if you dig further
past the hail pelting
your icy skin
beneath the urge to stay
in bed veiled and still
lies new beginnings
forward motion
yin into yang
blooming
growth
and spring
*quote from lisa colt's "prayer"
there is beauty there
to be found
nudging dirt
and fallen leaves aside
beneath the lethargy
the gloomy skies
those hazy eyes
there is anticipation stirring
impetus and children yelling
the sweet taste
of strawberries
bicyclists pink flushed cheeks
and pant legs rolled
picnics
and courage
remembrance
yes, if you dig further
past the hail pelting
your icy skin
beneath the urge to stay
in bed veiled and still
lies new beginnings
forward motion
yin into yang
blooming
growth
and spring
*quote from lisa colt's "prayer"
Friday, March 25, 2011
Saturday, February 26, 2011
getting unstuck
is exhausting
lub dub lub dub lub dub
but if i stop now
it may just settle
slowly tumbling
then gathering
in careless piles
at the bottom
a slow-motion
pinball game
i keep slamming
the sides trying
to flip upwards
advancing
but inescapably
it all slides through
the center and i'm back
where i started
is exhausting
lub dub lub dub lub dub
but if i stop now
it may just settle
slowly tumbling
then gathering
in careless piles
at the bottom
a slow-motion
pinball game
i keep slamming
the sides trying
to flip upwards
advancing
but inescapably
it all slides through
the center and i'm back
where i started
Friday, February 11, 2011
The Amazing Live Sea-Monkeys Ocean-Zoo
but when will you
thaw me out?
curbed life processes
without termination
you call it
suspended animation
i call it
<<shrivel>>
Thursday, February 10, 2011
yes, you
i like this song
far too much
to know the lyrics
for once everything
becomes clear
it loses its power
something about bohemian
dancing perfect
nipples and
passing out in
your garden
we've been magnetized
for years and
i refuse to stop
losing myself
in your infinite charm
amigo
Tuesday, February 8, 2011
sadness broadcast
thin lines connect
zig then zag
yeah
small fuzzy shocks
nag your shoulders
pesky gnats
coax them off
with your smooth
dance moves
michael
michael michael
i'll change my hair
but inside i'll stay
the same
thin lines connect
zig then zag
yeah
small fuzzy shocks
nag your shoulders
pesky gnats
coax them off
with your smooth
dance moves
michael
michael michael
i'll change my hair
but inside i'll stay
the same
i want to bless you.
do you think god
would mind?
achoo.
little mouse sneezes
and sighs
come from you.
you in your
high-waisted sweatpants.
do you think god
would mind?
achoo.
little mouse sneezes
and sighs
come from you.
you in your
high-waisted sweatpants.
Sunday, January 30, 2011
Friday, January 21, 2011
excipient
she zipped up
her sprayed-on skirt
the teeth gripping
ruthlessly
snagging the tights
her ex-girlfriend loved
weeping an itch
out of every stitch
exorcising that thought
she walked toward the exit
in her excruciating stems
through the revolving door
at her favorite lounge
she whispered "french 75"
her fingers slithering
through his flyaway curls
exchanging confidences
for hours
although she couldn't
be exactly sure
she waited
swells raising
up and breaking
in the vessels
of her eyes
they finally splashed up
awakening her
and with that
she decisively
poured herself
back to the ground
for another night
her sprayed-on skirt
the teeth gripping
ruthlessly
snagging the tights
her ex-girlfriend loved
weeping an itch
out of every stitch
exorcising that thought
she walked toward the exit
in her excruciating stems
through the revolving door
at her favorite lounge
she whispered "french 75"
her fingers slithering
through his flyaway curls
exchanging confidences
for hours
although she couldn't
be exactly sure
she waited
swells raising
up and breaking
in the vessels
of her eyes
they finally splashed up
awakening her
and with that
she decisively
poured herself
back to the ground
for another night
Wednesday, December 29, 2010
Saturday, December 25, 2010
crush
she woke up, reaching out for him
feeling the vibrations of his breath.
she yawned, paused–
rolled out of bed
slowly, methodically
as to not disturb him.
reaching for her red shawl,
a gift from henry,
she flashed back nearly a decade
ago– the brief affair.
as she threw it across her shoulders
she was swept away to that
evening, nine years ago, standing
on the dock, wet cheeks
and pitted stomach
watching the boat drift
further and further
until it was but a speck–
a distant memory of one
great love.
measuring one rounded
scoop, she poured the
coffee in. water up to the line.
a simple recipe, if you
could even call it one.
unlike the complex
formula that was
her life.
she added another heap
of grounds with her
hand, letting them sift
through her
sinewy fingers.
eventually everything slips through,
she thought.
like me lately.
flat lining mostly–
with an occasional heartbeat
just to appease those
counting on me...or myself
what is the difference?
at one time there wasn't one
I blended all your hopes
and expectations with my
forming understanding of the world
her recipe was written.
one part the things you would have
done differently,
two parts the things you never did,
a dash of fear–
a cup of beaming pride,
a drop of tears.
make that two drops,
the tears
are really tasty,
they're in season
right now
now hit the buttons.
grate
puree
crush
mix
Tuesday, December 14, 2010
slumber-ation |ˈsləmbərā sh ən|
noun
1 the action or state of dividing attachments, beliefs, thoughts, or events into distinct, detached elements in ones sleep; processing, incorporating, and releasing in suspended consciousness
1 the action or state of dividing attachments, beliefs, thoughts, or events into distinct, detached elements in ones sleep; processing, incorporating, and releasing in suspended consciousness
last night
pieces rocked me
awake
a verse reeling
so essential
i knew in that moment
that i must commit it to heart:
last i know i'll leave it
every day a second day
do you grasp yours? |
Monday, December 13, 2010
Sunday, December 12, 2010
Saturday, December 11, 2010
surprise!
I sweep the corner up,
turning the page
and find you,
Matthew Phipps.
You have caught me
I was alone, reading quietly
on a rainy afternoon,
when all along you were
here, silently passing the
time in my book.
Were you hoping I would
discover you?
Realize our connection and
marvel at the good fortune
that we both enjoy
laughter
bubbling in our chests?
Or did you aim to linger
unnoticed for a few more days–
weeks even–
until finally mustering
up the courage to spring
up arms outstretched,
mouth wide, heart
quaking?
Monday, December 6, 2010
Sunday, December 5, 2010
not cool
I'm not walking
like this
to look cool–
my pants
just keep falling down.
I saunter side-to-side,
head cocked
hand on crotch.
But no, I'm not cool.
I'm not trying to
look hip,
aloof or tough.
You see,
The inseam is far
too long.
And although I wear
this belt, they seem
to slowly creep
further and
further
down
as if once they reach
my ankles
they will finally
escape
and wander the streets
morph
into some sort of Blue Jean
Blob Creature,
and slink
into a nearby gutter
only to emerge
20 blocks away,
apply for a job at
Panda Express
and for a studio
apartment
so that they
may have some
steady income
and a place
to work
on their novellas
Tuesday, November 30, 2010
Cracked
wondered
about everything. She was
full of wonder, yet
somehow she felt less
than wonderful.
Less than.
Those words often stuck
with her like some
sort of treacherous taffy,
clinging to the every corner
of her mind.
Corners. She thought.
Why is it that the corners
are most easily cracked?
Like dried Winter lips
or cuticles.
It is as if the coming together—
the union—leaves them
that much more vulnerable.
This was a theme for Dahlia.
Why was it that she always
felt this exposed weakness,
this dependence,
whenever she came
together
with a new lover—
and then inevitably
came undone?
Leaving her more fragile than
when she began.
A heap on the floor—small
and wide-eyed—like
a child swimming
in his father's business suit.
Sleeves pouring over tiny hands,
so no one can reach them.
Monday, November 29, 2010
Wednesday, November 10, 2010
falling
fall. fall back.
fall back into yourself.
back into your being,
your center. scurry.
get ready for the brumal
future. let go.
let go of everything
which no longer serves
you. remember
to breathe. breathe in the new.
breathe in the crisp cold change.
be grateful. be open.
do not close up
your lasting warmth.
your warm heart.
use this beating
furnace and call on
loved ones to gather
around it. remember
to hold to the center
amidst the ebb
and flow.
this time is change.
this time is
the present.
be present.
know the beauty that is
to be found all around you.
breathe it in,
let it encircle your entirety.
then let it go—willingly.
do not hold on—knuckles
white and fatigued fingers
curled. it will all come back
and leave again
and again in new form.
just fall.
Monday, November 8, 2010
Sunday, November 7, 2010
closer
basement of a
coffee shop
sheltered from the
rain
the song comes on
poignant
the song that grabs
pulls
me back
two years ago
walking in sheets
of rain
"she took my heart"
listening to this
song
tears escaping
walking
torn
"i think she took my soul"
trapped
in deterioration
and unrealized
expectations
how to
escape?
but now it makes me
smile and ache
"baby where do i sleep?"
could it ever be
did you know
how i felt back then
i dreamed of you
my friend
"with the moon I run far"
your intoxication
your dark beautiful
energy
pulling me in while
simultaneously pushing
me far away
you are the master of
coinciding contradictions
i know that now
how long ago it all seems
"from the carnage of the fiery sun"
Wednesday, November 3, 2010
electric fences
kiss the rain-soaked
cement and torn leaves
leading up to my
building
i look up
regarding the roof that
welcomed your keys
that day when sun
and anticipation
were abundant
some parts of me know logic—
they studied it extensively
with a focus in authenticity
but others, little sparks,
break off
with different intentions
they are pulled to
my magnetic heart
infusing me with
romantic could-have-beens,
theatric tragedies
and tortured visions
i imagine
in the distance i see you
running
full speed
towards me
but wait
this would never happen
you would never run
you would come close
but ultimately you could not
pick up your pace
for fear
of falling
but wait
this would never happen
you would never run
you would come close
but ultimately you could not
pick up your pace
for fear
of falling
your fist opens and
dried yellow roses
are furiously
released behind you
can you see me
from there?
the best parts?
not the mundane
humdrum puttering
can you see my intent?
but then
Sunday, October 10, 2010
26
bundled in layers and scarves,
catching strangers' eyes,
doing her best not to think.
eventually she would give in,
forging visions and
gallivanting around
her visionary mind.
in just a few hours she would be
jostling against fellow travelers,
kissing the rim of first class champagne,
licking her lips, and
making conversation with
noelle, the french beauty seated
on her left. but
presently she was
questioning her abruptness and
reasons for leaving. remembering those
salty tears that had run down,
taunting her cheeks as she
undressed the night before,
vowing to
wander this journey alone.
XII—midnight. time to drift
yieldingly into the unknown—
zero hour.
Friday, October 8, 2010
Tuesday, September 28, 2010
blue-winged bird
blue-winged bird
spanned, blanketing the ocean
miles away
a speck—a mini silver ship
fills with seawater
as the rain spills down
bath shower
your eyes may be beady
but they are not small
i dove into them once
though i never properly learned how
as we picnicked,
blades of green between
our toes, i listened intently
to your stories and
passed you the jam
you made me promise
cross my heart and
hope to die
that i would visit you
in ever foreign country
you pushed me towards
i ached on that train
47 km to go
as the toddler in the next
row stuffed zoo animals
into his already bursting
cheeks as if he was
anticipating winter
just when i think i've
finally figured you out
you crack open the latest
russian doll
revealing a more petite,
ornate version
of yourself
i used to dream
of fucking it all up
now i dream of
holding it all
together—
though my grip
isn't what it used to be
so farewell majestic
creature soar
on your way
they're expecting you
remember to always
bring a gift
or at least leave
a thank-you note
when you depart
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